> bring me to life.

~~Wednesday, January 30, 2008~~

3:08 AM

my poor ben darling was having fever since thursday nite rite aft he played so vigirously with bryan...

then came to knw by chance that mil actuall showered him with cold water due to the hot days...wth...

and poor ben had the fever raising so high hitting 40.4 degree on sat afternoon!!! omg..he was in such an agony... he doesnt like sponging as well..cry so badly and i was in tears lah...cos aft inserting the medi at his anus...i cant further fed him with any fever content medi via oral for the next 12 hrs...

his fever subsided on Sun morng...but again rose to 39.9 degree at 2am...no choice...i fed him oral medi...sponged him repeatedly...till i fall aslp by his side...woke up at 6am..chk his temp gone down to 37.8...i was slightly relief...at least nt so hot for him...

to play safe brought him to reconsult the doc...guess wat..he's got fake measles forming on his tummy alrdy...s doc said he shd be recovering,otherwise gota send him for blood test if fever goes up tmr morng..
=) and ben was so cute in the clinic... "arh.........ARH...." so long like singing song to the doc and nurses there...he smiled! hahh 1st smile aft he got beta...
the nurse advised to get ben a quick cold shower if hes still having high fever to bring down the temp...i knew this method long time ago but cos he's having cold hands and feet when his body tem rises...so i forgo this method... =)

and today the fake measles thingy spread to his cheeks as well...and he's so clingy must carry him and walk ard... =) but at least he wasnt having any fever and body aches. Thank God....

Bryan's behaving rather well these days...
im trying to get him to spell..started him off with the DAYS, 1 night 1 word 1st...he can spell MONDAY and write it out..bravo for him...today supposed to teach him TUESDAY...but he got a new chinese reader bk so got him to read to me...but he cant, tried to re-read the whole book with him and get him to read bk to me...he as usual "ai ya.." so b4 he start, i ask him to keep the book and i walked off..he knew i was angry with his attitude he run aft me and cried "mummy i wanna read, i wanna read..." "keep the book, dun read anymore." i said coldly...and i forbid him to enter my room...i fell aslp with ben...hahah and suddenly woke up now...so blog lor... lol

me rather bz with work...gg for more tenders...so got more things to calculate and cost for... hopefully can get both bldg and sanitary works...so this yr will be damn bz... =)

i still havent go book for driving training and test date...when i get my pay this thur...i straight go BBDC book... =)

wanna change my hairstyle...mayb a cut..make it shortshort...or go for perm to look even more mature...lol..see hw la...
this cny is gona be so boring...

kimmie, ernie...hope to meet u gals this sunday... =)

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Friday, January 25, 2008~~

2:25 AM

after dinner at in law hse...
got nothing better to do video these... =)

ben ben now has got another 2 upper teeth grown...but not the "men ya" those 2 next to the "men ya" so now he looks more like a dracula.... lol
he can move ard in his walker vr well now...
can reach to places tat attracts his attention...
he's taller now...he's bending his knees slightly when he's on the walker...
he surely is a tall baby =)

njy these 2 video clips..
(apologies...didnt knw the screen was tilted while capturing the boys...and best part i duno hw to adjust upon uploading to youtube -.- sorie)

benben is a keen newspaper "watcher" and a truly TeeVee fan... hahaha

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Wednesday, January 23, 2008~~

6:11 AM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BELOVED PAPA...
May u stay as cheerful and contented as now...
=) TOT OF BRINGING THE BOYS TO UR HOUSE TO DINE WITH U AND BLOW CANDLES...U GOTA A FUNERAL TO ATTEND TO...
" HAHAHHAA...its alrite la...nvm la..." u said...
muacks... I Love U, Papa..
muacks from bryan
muacks from benben

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super pissed off today....
hahha....haiz... stupid unreasonable resident lah...
idiot man... i got ticked off for nothing...super pissed...
duno wat he said to c.o.w. la...tat woman oso crazy...shd understd from my side of view that surely i wnt tell tat idiotic man those things im nt supposed to mah... wth... obviously cant speak on behalf of a cleint's view to him mah...he bastard...think he can read a few drawings superman liao... wanna tok bigbig.... lol i wanna LMAO...he tot he's some BIG SHOT in the estate...lol PUI ..

learnt something different again fr Shifu...
" In an exams...u needa be accurate...100%, in order to get perfect marks.
In tender...u dun hv to be so accurate cos its for contitgency la.
when we got awarded then we needa be accurate ... =)
sometimes, we cannot choose to be or not to be accurate n pricing cos
the market rates for materials raise and fall like stocks & shares...unpredictable...&
if clients/the QPs wants luxuary materials...we still can breakeven via contra with other items,
if they choose to accept our counter offer of secondary materials, we earn..."

hahah....jus recalled something
i scolded the HDB technical officer Md Shalan ( yes if ur chinese...read his name...very funnie lor....)over the phone...
2 weeks after repeated feedback thru phonecall to their hotline, he failed to respond / react within the 3 days grace period set by the HDB themself..wat a shame...
only after i dropped a sarcastic email then he called me the next day morning...
giving me the super lame excuses... " got many cases to attend, very busy." then at least have the courtesy to gif a call to inform me, nv ask u to attend immediately rite?
i hate i when he ask if he can visit me after office hrs, and when i told him between 8to 9pm he gif me tat "huh" respond...knn and say he tink he cannot make it....then he had better not asked in the 1st place only to make me more fume...
gif stupid solutions, trying to picture the ceiling leakage over the phone...bloodly hell...this sat if he failed to turn up, im sure he will get the BEST out of me the following week...
even if he turn up...im gonna "talork" him.... hahahhaha....

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Thursday, January 17, 2008~~

11:28 PM

3 cheers for Bryan...
Hip hip hooray
Hip hip hooray
Hip hip hooray!!!
so proud can write his chinese name so well... muacks keep it up...ur doing great..i love u!

this is BenBen on walker! hahaha....
he's lazy to walk and so upset when we place him on the walker the 1st time...as if we are gonna abandon him... "sar gua" my mother in law says him...lol
now he "walks" reverse...hahha....

he can crawl and manoevre quite well on bed/mattress...but he gt a bad habit of using his head to "lead" the way to crawl... means he's crawling like a worm...head 1st followed by body and lift his buttocks then the legs push him fwd...aiyo...so funnie... must record down and upload on youtube some day...

and im so relief that i PASSED my advanced theory...

but i still havent book my driving test date... lol

mayb tmr or sat...go dwn fix instructor 1st then start practise... its gonna be FUN!! =)

got 2 structure tenders to price for...so this weekends gonna be busy with work...i hope i can go out with kim and ernie...i missed them!!

hmm... hahah, workwise so far so good...i hope i didnt disappoint Shifu or Don... =)

so...these 2 tenders if awarded will be a vr great start of a new year for me...us... =))

and i wanna steal "gang hu" from Shifu and Don... hehehe.... once i mastered...hahha... im more than a thumbs up... =) im waiting for this to be realised by last quarter of this year... =) my goal.

Shifu's & Don's words have great impact on me... thanks for the patience, the guidance and all...cheers.... i owe it to u guys...

and...thks for feeding me FATFAT....lol... bringing me to lunch at places in the EAST with such great yummies... =p thanks!

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Monday, January 14, 2008~~

6:05 AM

Hahaha.... i woke up suddenly at 3.30am...cant slp...

clearing my emails...and now...blogging..

heee...this is my vr recent photo...taken after Teo Yee's son, Kelvin's wedding.

To the world, I may not be the best

To you, I may not be the most wonderful being you ever met

To hubby, I may not be the most lovely wife

... ....

BUT ...

Certainly to my boys...I'm their greatest MUM! [i hope.. =p hahaa]

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Bryan -

i made him cried vr badly last night...lol cos he said " mummy i dun wan to write alrdy. i wan drink milk , slp alrdy."

i was trying to teach him write his chinese name correctly...and jus as he was able to made it...he said this...i was so pissed that i gave him the fed-up look and ask him "KEEP, DUN WRITE ANYMORE." and i walked away.

he got frightened i guessed...its been a long time since i used this look and tone on him...so he chased after me with his excerise bk and pencil," mummy i wan to write, i wan to write.i wan to write properly..." he said teary...

"I dun wan u to write anymore, KEEP!" and he cried...lol...

then he keep apologising..saying that he won't do it again, while i was putting ben to bed... lol i wanna laugh sia tat moment...

hope this reverse-physcology works on him... lets see if he's more keen to practise and learn new words later tonight... =) <evil smile>

Ben -

happy 7mths darling...

he's 7.2kg (lighter cos he's been on medication for almost 2weeks? high fever, cough, running nose- poor baby), and measuring 69cm. =) tall baby for his age...jus abit light, shd weigh close to 8kg lor...

had his hep jab last sat..didnt cry for the 1st time since birth...Ben ur getting braver..cheers.. =)

Myself -

having advanced theory test on Wed, 16 Jan @ 9.15am. hopefully PASS la..so i can book my driving test date... =) looking fwd to driving. hopefully the license can be in time to be my birthday gift this yr ...

i broke my compact mirror again last sat night...haiz... it was the 2nd time tat i broke a mirror in my life... i hope something good will come along instead... @.@

had a bruise on my left cheek.just nxt to my left ear...hahaha... haiz clumsy la...oso dunno hw i got whacked by the car door... swells abit...like got abused...lol -.-'

its 5.55am now...my eyes are still as wide...haiz...hopefully still as energetic at work later...

kimmie, sorie wasnt able to meet u...maybe we meet up this sun? ernie, how's things? hope to see u this sun too if kim can make it...

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i've been living with shadows upon my head

trying so hard to smile but it just can't seem to move on

i've been living with high expectations all these while only to receive greater disappointments

so here i am...

clearing the cobwebs in the corner of my mind

ready for the new life journey that awaits to be unleashed

2008...here i come!

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Saturday, January 05, 2008~~

10:06 PM

Yong,
Let's share this music vidz together... i love this song lotz =)
the lyrics speaks so well of us...
u & her ...me & him... haiz...hahha
anyway... life's gotta move on...there's gotta be something more than LOVE

What Hurts The Most by Rascal Flatts

So let's pray for...
Ordinary Miracle ( by Sarah Mclachlin ) to befall on us.. =)

Anyway...we both are 傻瓜 (by 温岚) in relationships... >.<

hugs...

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Thursday, January 03, 2008~~

12:39 AM

some random photos taken recently

Ben looked like a girl man whenever he put on this cap

Me & ben

Me & Bryan

the 3 of us trying to get a group photo done

and again...hahaha...aiyo...ben ben look up!!!

my lovely ben can pose sia... Take 1

Take 2....

Take 3 (I personally love this pic)

Take 4

Last take!

Bryan @ playground

Bryan caught flu - running nose...

Bryan trying to SMILE nicely...lol

and this purple thingy..they (niece Faith & bryan ) called it Barney and true enuff la...looks abit like it...lol

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Yong,

brace up... there's more things in life than LOVE... =)

i knw its kinda mean to say this & its always easier said than done la...BUT... its ur mindset.

i used to tease u when u speak to me of failed relationship... " if u hv chosen me back then, mayb none of these wld hv happened..." hahaha... Yong was my crush in sec sch days... those days ...hahhaa... memorables...

liquor doesnt do wonders/change anything in reality, so stop drowning urself in liquor & tears. let time heal the "wounds"... HUGS

Zi,

duno wat to say to u...

crying is a big NONO to u...

so...since tat day... i really duno watz gg on between us???

anyway...u always gt vr packed schedules...fly here & there & everywhere la...

365days... 24hrs x 365days, i only see u for like less than 20hrs in yr 06, less than 8hrs in yr 07..so yr 08 is it gona be even lesser? (shrugs)

erm... take care is all i can say for now... hugs

weather has taken a change for the colds..

having bad leg cramps on the right...muscle cramps...haiz...limpping at site...so funnie...

passed my final theory evaluation liao...praying to pass the actual final theory test on the 16th...so that i can book my driving test date...most prob wld be in May or June liao...tats damn long la...

having lighter head, mind & soul of everything now...cos i threw away "stones, rocks, pebbles, boulders" on the vr minute the time strikes 0000 for year 2008.

feel so much lighter and better in almost everything...

new mindset in life, work & play.

whats in the past we cant change,

whats in the future we cant predict...

what we can do now is cherish all we have and work smart to achieve our attainable goals in life.

(hahaha...wa kaoz...suddenly i said all these out...)

So for Year 2008.... this is what it is...

Life's short

break the rules

forgive quickly

kiss slowly

love truly

laugh uncontrollably

& nv regret anything tat makes u smile

CHEERS for a better year ahead

save me from the nothing I’ve become..