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yooohooo...
finally managed to meet mrs tiger and bear!!
woot!!...hugs... mish u gals so much!!!
had a big feast at newton circus...lol cos i got my 1st pay!!
had so much laughters and fun there while makaning...
the "mobbed- hair auntie", "the gangster head uncle", "the entertainer guru" and a birthdday boy next to our table! ok that table got 2 thick-eyebrow guys! attracted me so muchie! they are thais sia...wth... lol i got this crazy liking for thick-eyebrow guys since young...lol old habit die hard...
ok..this gathering we are supposedly to vent and let out all our pent up fustrations...but i guess the 3 of us jus wanna act strong amongst..haiz...
ok was damn late when we boarded the last train hm...no feeder bus liao so i took a damn long stroll hm...lol
u nv knw hw nice it is to walk at night alone...where there's no heavy traffic flow...no human traffic either...watching the passing handful of vehicles on the road, watching couples in the busstop...on the walkway... haiz...so pent up emotions liao jus wanna cry out....still wanna act strong...lol cos there are still a few couples along the way cnt let them see me in this state...lol (perhaps they wnt even see lah..they so engross in whatever they are doing then...lol...)
ok then i wasn't halfway hm yet sia...lol... feeling giddy..sat at the 1st busstop..rested for awhile b4 i headed hm...hehe...made a call then...but wasn't answered...anyway sms kimmie...lol... i hope ur gma doesnt always say that to u...lol hugs..
reached hm...went straight to shower then headed to my bed...tossed and turn for quite awhile b4 i slpt...
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ONCE UPON A TIME
I WAS FALLING IN LOVE
NOW I'M ONLY FALLING APART
THERE'S NOTHING I CAN DO...
TOTAL ECLISPE OF THE HEART
this is my Da Sao Ye
then..my Xiao Sao Ye
both are my darlings
together they can be... ...
real rascals!!!
hahahahaha
sometimes they pretend to be nice to each other
see their smiles....lol
bryan really loves ben ben alot
he loves taking photos wif ben ben
making ben ben smile is his mission
loving ben ben is his vision
seeing mummie happy is his goal
We Teach SOME by what we SAY We Teach SOME MORE by what we DO BUT We Teach MOST by What WE ARE ok generally updating...went to enrol in driving school..sianz... gota go theory lessons, practice, evaluate - must pass before sit for the actual theory test.. gosh...hell lotz of time... sitting at the waiting area...watching newbies being guided to drive in the circuits...my body kena tension infinitelyi jus duno ymayb cos since young had dreams of me driving and kena crashed...remembered i said my dreams are true...so i was kinda phobia? haiz...stressed la...so Mar will be the driving test date... i hope i can pass the theory and learn driving wellof cos pass la!so my boss can get me a car to go around islandwide for my job... i pray for favours and graces from Jesus...Amen... @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ poor bryan he got it again from cow...poor ben ben oso kena from cow...argh... i jus wanna cry...wat wrong did i do to deserve all these?see my boys kena whacked?wth... i tok to bryan aft he calmed down...then realised he was wronged by cow la...tat idiot nv find out the truth..slapped his face..his upper lips kena...slightly swollen...haiz...actually its all tat feifei's wrong la...push him... so vr naturally he pushed her bk...i cant say bryan is rite or wrong...so i tok to him...and he's jus so sweet asked me to call tat feifei to apologise... =))) but was stopped by cow la...idiot man... of cos i scolded cow la...for nt findg out the truth and whack bryan...and the temper was nt contained and so it shifted to benben...kena whacked loud smack on the butts...till h cried so loudly.. heart pains...aches...aiyo...duno wat to say la... of cos i continue to scold cow la...crazy man... then he like sort of er...understd... anyway...i had enuff...so came in to chk mails, msn, blog....nw gg to slp soon....haiz... i hope i wnt breakdown =) *************************************************************************************heys...nice chatting wif u last nite...er...i meant in the weewee early morning...haiz...really mish those days...=)))and yes i cant denied the fact I Love U ...heheehugs...bless u
Geeez....i jus love to smile wif a high pitch....
Oooppps...sorie im abit blur...
Oh...i jus remembered....
heee....i got a video clip posted by xiaoball at youtube
huh?? wat?! stay tuned so u know wat i did in the vidz ok?
ONCE UPON A TIME THERE WAS LIGHT IN MY LIFE 
NOW THERE'S ONLY LOVE IN THE DARK
Kim jus love taking photos after i told her we havent been taking since last day at school....
SEE...kena caught in such an expression...cos she took again...
see arh...my face machaim wanna hammer ppl...so watch out... "i call police"
everything just come out of your mouth...
"ok" also u
after that "cannot" also u
"free" also u
then again "busy" also u
u sian of waiting just that few hours...
how about me?
i waited... i waited for almost 8mths...
then again it seems like it's gonna repeat again
busy busy busy...
tell me who's not busy?
it's just up to u... what's ur priority?
time management?
ur just pushing me... ...
pushing me further...
further and further away...
haiz... sick... wth
just tell me this...please...
"i dun want you anymore"
and i will know what to do then...
it's hard to love people...
it's always easier to be loved...
but it's always not easy to find one
who can love u as much.
i thought i've found you... ...
in the end...it's seems like...
it's still back to square one
i always cannot locate a place...
a prominent place in your heart.
neglected is that the right word?
had ear infection cos of serious nose blocked...
my ears damn pain..and best of all...right ear can't hear properly
anyway didnt go work on Mon...lol
totally KO at home cos the medication too strong...
the only day i didn't get to cough! =)
went bk to work today...
cant take the medication so....the coughings cm bk in full force till i teared each time i cough...
had gastrics pain too...aiyo...can die tolerating it...
and i found myself missing my job badly... hehe
haiz...Boss arh...stop chasing me for the licence and thks arh for countdown for me hor... 5 more mths... haiz...
he warned me of very tight schedule nxt yr ard Mar/apr onwards...cos of the 3 new term contracts im supposed to handle for him as well... lol tats y he wanted me to get my licence fast so tat i can travel easily up/down all the sites (west coast, sembawang, bedok, amk and 3 PUB sites)
tight schedules me nt afraid...jus afraid too free... lol
bz can keep wories at bay mah... hw wonderful... natural antidote...
WO DE BAOBEIs --> bryan & ben
had a super long window shopin wif kim...hahha...tat was very nice indeed
cos we keep on rattling non-stop...aiyo so much to catchup...till we cant shop properly...so ended up called ernie to meet us...
aidooi...she cried when i hugged her "dun let go" she said softly in my embrace...
oh my wat happened to her...
had short chat in the train bk to pioneer mall...for haircut...hehehe
aiya...ernie didnt join us in the end...
i didnt cut my hair short short...
this is the 2nd dresser who said i can't cut my hair too short cos of my neck...
so end up i only trimmed it and had my fringe cut, dyed and did treatment...
he said i can perm my hair too...hahha...OK...mayb CNY time bah...
kim had a nice dye and hair trimming! she looked so chio sia! hehee...
after the haircut...it was 11.15pm...so late..we hadn't had our dinner
so we had it at the Mac, called puja out to join us
then guess wat..kena disturbed ...nono i shd say harass by and indian old man who sat nxt table(he's siao lang, i tink)
he goes like this "Mdm, mdm....heer heer..."
puja said tat this was the man who scolded LKY openly...and tell ppl to get him to see him...wth
then like this " Miss....misss.....misss.....can offer me a cigerette?"
and he can goes on "can offer me? can offer me?" and his "smile" was damn disgusting...
till puja got so pek cek as we can't continue our conversation..."do we look like the person who smokes? are we smoking? can u stop it? or i call police."
then his "smile" gone sia...and then he started smiling disgusting at us again...
so wat to do...the 3 of us jus went off la...then he went away too... lol
spoilt our mini gathering...
haiz...
im still down sia...
lol.... i will be ok...no wories
haha...had natin to do after i cm bk to orfis from site walks at AMK and Bedok this morning...
so here blogging again to pass time while waiting to meet kimmie....
haiz...supposedly to be vr happy cos finally met zi though its jus a very super short while only...haiz...suddenly so down..duno why...watever...
later gg to cut short my hair and stuffs la...wif kimmie...lol
change a new look...hopefully everything gg to be GREAT after that.... =))
went for Risk Management on 15/16 Nov
it was a very damn boring course and to make things worst its an exam based course...
wth...2days course and exam...failed no cert.. haiz...
the trainers are like damn bo liao type..."i skip this...and this and this also...not so impt...all repetitive one la...anyway...if u score 50marks u still get the cert, u score 99marks u still get a cert..so u understd wat i meant? dun hv to do so well for the exam ok..."
win lor...then i duno i go for this course for what...
oh ya..jus for the cert lor... haiz...
imagine supposedly to be 14hrs of training...they shortened to less than 8hrs...and then expect and exam to be carried out...wth... somemore its 6 essay qns...each to be 2&1/2 pages long in a pathetic one hour!
so when i got out of the exam hall...i called my boss "Boss..." i havent even say anything yet, he asked..."how?passed?" and i started complaining....lol..."fail dun blame me hor...lol..." [anyway my boss failed this course oso la]
then he told me the good news..."we are awarded the contract for west-coast, bedok, sembawang...u will be very very busy liao... so book driving alrdy?" there comes my stress...lol...
really must go buy the theory book to study then find a trainer to teach me liao...then go test... haiz...
gonna meet kim tmr...do hair...hopefully can meet her...cos gotta work...i mean later...haiz...
having bad headaches...
haha... i asked for it...
cldn't slp last nite tats y... haiz...
feelg unwell... feel nausea... argh... sian ness....
later gg for site showaround at Jalan Teck Whye...
meetg Shifu there straightaway so...
dun hv to wake up too early..hehe...
i hope i can pick up the tips fr Shifu... =]
ydae had great fun at bedok site...lol damn heavy downpour...
cnt do anything, so we sat at coffeeshop chit chat... then duno y started tokg abt ghost stories...lol
ya...got natin better to do mah... had vr early lunchie there too... thks arh Don! lol
then went kaki bukit took some parts and head bk to AMK site office...
there went site chking wif Shifu...
then crap with the SO - BJ Tan (the idiot man who said i looked like 33 yrs old =[)
and then shifu drove me bk to head office at meiling...heheh to take cheque to buy the tender doc... =)
left early as usual...wa...wong drove sia...he gg my hse for MJ...he came and picked me hm lor..
envy and at the same time stressed cos im supposed to take up driving...lol and the best part is... i havent even go book!! keke can die...
watever... my stomach vr weak nw...sianz... hope tmr will be ok..
ok tats all folks {also blog so lengthy...lol... =p}
cheers
+.+"' cldnt slp
so here i am... blogging... lol
got plenty of time of late...
cos my blog is vr up to date...haha...
arh...waiting for 25th Nov to come fast!
k850i ---- here i come!!!
hee...asked xiaoball get me the Little Missy shirts...damn cute...lol
like the tops she got... NICE...
really gotta take up driving liao...
boss chasing me for it... cos he's been doing my job as well as i dun hv a car to run the sites.. [thks arh lao ban! lol]
finding myself lookg fwd to go work =]
GREAT isn't it? =)
i haven't feel this way for vr long time le...
GLAD I FOUND MYSELF living... lol
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this is for my dearest -- U
I find myself missing u even more -- during ur absence
I like the way im hugged... =)
I love pillow talk with u
I love lying so close to u -- hearing u breathe, hearing ur heartbeat
I find my existence then...
U asked me
if I love U
I closed my eyes, smiled and shook my head
deep down U knw my feelings for U, aren't U?
itchy ears u wanna hear me say only
notti me jus dun wanna follow 'instructions'
haha... "u notti i call police" i joked
U are still so charming as ever -- my love
Ur smiles melts me
Wat spells did u learnt?
I lost my way back into love
Loving u accidentally... actually
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At times I feel...
Words themselves are jus worthless to say...
they dun cost anything...
jus say only,
cos there r ppl who loves to hear, hear only...
and there r ppl who jus loves to say, say only...
and dun hold them accountable for their words...
ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS
thats hw this phrase comes about...lol
[kaoz... -.-" im teachg origins of the idioms]
kkk...beta stop blogging liao...
duno wat im blogging oso... hahaha...
go take 40 winks, count mehmeh sheeps... ZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZ
I LOVE U! darlings
---> U,bryan,ben,xiaoball,lao dou,lao bu,mrs tiger,mrs bear
er...its abit small...hehehe...i duno hw to adjust it...duno why got so much space...but really my folder got too many too many photos of our happy moments together...mrs tiger, mrs bear and me....hehehe... i jus took out those memorable ones...and i found i've got plenty photos wif kim...myself...ernie...lol
hope u all like it! =) 
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Darkest Secrets
no matter how naive, how carefree, how simple u r
u bound to have some secrets of your own
big ones
small ones
dark ones
bright ones
minor ones
major ones
lovely ones
horrid ones
painful ones
sweet ones
evil ones
arh... ... watever
u name it...
do u have any secrets?
I HAVE... ...
and its my darkest secret since so far...
gotta bring it with me
and only me & U shall know
sounds eerie?
wanna know watz that secret?
itchy alrdy?
too bad...alrdy said its a secret....Sssssssssshhhhhhhhhhh....
saw kimmie's latest update... was laughing away at those photos which brought back so much memories... suddenly missed EF! hahaha ...wonder hw she's been doing... -.-"wa... its been more than a year alrdy... so long sia... o.oand its was like a few mths ago jus went Selvi's hse for deepavali and tmr its deepavali again liao...TIME FILES....i missed those days when we always hog up icec classroom till the counter staffs were like finali u all graduated liao [=) cos we always made them stay back wif us...hehhee], hangouts at esplanades (cos we dun wanna go hm so early.. =p), the linkway where we did our major plots...and see "free shows" crazy ppl (the tissue boobers) and breakdancers (red pants...i nv get to see him....haa...) =)so i tot maybe i can post some pics of those days too (chk my folders...i can nv imagine...and recall we had some many photos sia!!! goodness me!)... cos i nv post them here bt all in frendster oni.. =)THOSE WE THE DAYS MY FRIENDS WE THOUGHT THEY NEVER ENDWE SING AND DANCE FOREVER AND A DAYWE LIVE THE LIFE WE CHOOSEWE FIGHT AND NEVER LOSEFOR WE WERE YOUNGAND SURE TO HAVE OUR WAYS!
wa..this college took me 2 hrs to do...cos the "paint" thingy...haiz...but its nice lor...too many pics duno wic to put up...so i did one college in ICEC...the other one still pending...those days in the esplanades outings...lol. u wait for my nxt posting....
calling mrs tiger and mrs bear.... we really must meet up liao!!! i pray natin crops up when the meeting's arranged! cheers!
Brotherly Loves... ... above allMummie's greatest LOVEAh Ben made to sit on the sofa like a doll...
Steady?
what's that???!!!
chey... can't eat it anyway...
Ohh...this looks interesting....
Bryan gor gor and Ah Ben di di
Ah Ben darling... cheesez....
Serious Ben Ben and mummie
arh...the 3 of us trying to get this pic done... both bryan and me trying to make ah ben cooperate
this pic is so clearly captured... Ah Ben looked like ???? lol steady sia
oh... times flies unknowingly ...
all the memories ...
be it happy or sad ...
with tears or laughters ...
they can never be recreated or disappeared ...
grateful for all... ...
time has engraved itself on me...
fine lines appear on the face...
white hairs growing on the head...
they represent happiness or otherwise?
they are part of me
and what I am now...
Hey!
Thank God We Are Together...
Cos Every Moment Spent With You,
Is The Moment I Treasure...
And.. ...
it ain't important...
IF in the end,
u love me no more...
I'm still glad that
u have walked part of my journey with me
it ain't easy finding someone suitable to be together...
thanks for everything
I LOVE YOU =) muacks!
Weeee.............
so long didnt blog abt my own darlings....
my elder Prince - Bryan
as naughty and sharp tongue as ever....lol......aka talk back prince....
his fav lines when im nt happy or get angry with him "Mummy, i big brother. i want to listen to u.i dun wan make mummy angry...i want be good boy...i want be quiet...i want to stop...sorry mummy..." and u bet this whole lines can go on and on and on and on and on...never ending till he finds it ENUFF then he will stop by himself...the more u try to comfort or stop him the more he will rattle these lines on and on... lol ... sometimes i really duno to laugh, to get angry or to gek sim? lol watever....
best part is now he learns hw to tell different version of the story to different ppl... till i got to use "still wanna lie, mummy write in ur com bk tell Ms Densie" then he will beg and cry and finali say the truth and stay with only one version of the true story... duno where he pick this from...BAD la...
when u ask him to practise his writings or do some worksheets... initially he started off ok...then he got bored, then he will excuse himself saying... "mummy i wanna slp alrdy, dun wan write." and he waits for u to tell him wat to do... if u said "No, write another one more page then u can go bed" he will "TSK TSK , NOT FAIR ONE" but he still finish tat last page u wan him to do...hahaha.... not fair one...i still not fair two leh....lol he's CUTE kekeke
now my 2nd prince - ah ben
aiyo....now saliva king...teething i supposed... so on and off he gets fever... "burning head" with "freezing hands and feet"...poor boy... BUT he still as active as ever...so dun think there's any issue abt it...
and when he wakes up..he goes "booo booo booo" with his saliva drooling out, at times he so clever can blow bubbles as well...lol... then out his tongue comes... like a snake...kekeke
got him some teethers...some to be frozen b4 use, others normal ones...he likes those cold gel teethers... soothe his sore gums...
he can roll and be on his tummy alrdy...3 cheers for ah ben!!! hehehe
but he dun really like to be on his tummy for more than 5-10 mins...he will start calling for help cos at times he jus cant get bk on his back...lol 
Eh? u looking at me?
Aiyo so pai seh...heee 
heeer....hheerr.... see...cheeky sia
he jus look like somebody.... lol =)
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Me? still as sick as ever...
coughs machiam gg cough out the lungs and throw out my heart... damn xin ku... tears roll out of the eyes... haiz...then my whole face like chilli padi... can die
the medication dun seem to work for me alrdy...gif antibiotics oso like of no use anymore...jialat
frankly speaking, i didnt turn up to work ydae...Shhhhssshhh... cos sat natin the workers can do. they jus do housekeeping and some touching ups , check stock...so...hee...i dun see the need for my presence la...anyway my shifu and ah Don is there to helpout...anything they settle for me... haiz, but hor its like so uneasy lor..cos nv turn up oso nv inform anyone...kekeke...haiz.. Mon i beta go neogitate with boss...sat i dun work...but i will if im required...if nt i dun hv enuff time with my DARLINGs.... =p
brought ben for 5-in-1 2nd dose jab ydae morning...insert the needle he cried super loud... lol so unlike bryan...bryan never cried once during all the jabs!
now ben ben alrdy 65.5 cm tall, weigh 6.4kg...hmm...didnt increase much weight... think cos i switched fully to formula... anyway i stopped b/feed le... im always so sickly ever since i started work and i cant eat much...scare not enuff of the nutrients for ben..so the switch is a must le... (sorry ah ben, intended to feed u till ur ard 1yr old.. but...anyway u benefit more cos u are fully b/fed, whereas gor gor got the mixture since birth till 3mths...hehe u won him..lol )
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hey u...
im calling u...
don't write me off just yet...
im finding my way back into love...
love actually ...
ok..today AMK site walk...
supposed to be 9am... my shifu late...
he went drinking wif boss last nite...
came in wif alcohol smell...
he duly shown me the site works...the sites to start work on and the new site at bedok...
intro SOs and COWs to me...hahah and tat idiot BJ said i looked like 33 yrs old! wa lao..me so "cao lao meh?"
he taught me to price for tender..wat to look out for...hw to adjust tender price..
dun play play...my shifu...walking directory, dictionary, networking... jus one word tonnes to pick up fr him...he jus teach if u willing to learn... =) he shown me wat im supposed to do as a PM..he and his team will back me all the way... SWEE!!!!
GREAT! i see challenges ahead!
its a God Blessed journey ahead!
went to work today popping 2 panadols b4 i go...cos head still heavy...cannot nv turn up for 1st day of work mah...die also must go... =)
Nam Plumbing Engineering Pte Ltd
this is my new company...
my boss..ah nam...funie man...
he came in late today...i was there 45mins early...lucky saw his brother ah Lim...he showed me to my seat and we chat in the office... =) he grew rounder! lol... 5 yrs nv seem him!lol
1st time got a boss too flexible until i duno hw to work for him...
he said " u dun hv to report to me ok? jus make sure the work goes on smoothly..."
i said " im jus afraid im nt up to ur std...cos watever i ask u u said u duno...i duno wat im supposed to do ma..."
he said "if i knw dun hv to engage u lor...lol... vr easy to pick up one la...relax."
i said" i scare cos im 'yi ren zhi shang, wan ren zhi xia' gt lots of responsibilities ma"
he laughed "very fast pick up one la...dun scare...i give u 6mths...6 mths u go take a driving license bk, ok? i gif u a car...easy to run the sites..."
and u really cant get this kind of boss...
he bring me around today but most of the officers nt ard...lol
but he really has got a great project co-ordinator Ah Keong...my shi fu.. i gt plenty to pick up fr him..
at then end of the day...i still hv no idea what im supposed to do as a project manager... (nice title rite? lol)