> bring me to life.

~~Tuesday, September 26, 2006~~

1:01 PM

wa...damn siong...kns..i stayed up 2 nites in a row again!
one for the SHN paper...ydae for the metaphoric sculpture..but damn fun when doing the sculpture thingy...haha

like i told kimmie...treat it like "playplay" and build up the sculpture...watever we supposed to present abt the ECE thingy can crap abit..(kimmie u can make it today cos i will go sit rite behind tat HL! No wories! winkwink**)
and i reali did tat! u can see my sculpture in my friendster or my msn pic..damn proud of it!

the presentation went on quite well for me cos of my dearest friends..their nods and smile made me less nervous and can bluff HL thru my presnetation of 5mins..hahaha
and i so proud to shocked HL tat i was married with bryan!! hahah i asked her "pls dun hate me!" hahaha
but seriously i WAS damn nervous cos i can see my hands shaking when i hold the sculpture lor..hahaha but i acted cool when HL asked if i had rashes on my neck due to nervous...kns..my neck is bcos of the neck lah...anyway i replied her saying that "No lah i wasn't nervous!" whole class went laughing...hahaha

sian..i supposd to stay up this morning wif kimmie to do our observation paper..again i PIG like nobody biz...and woke up in fright...now blogging cos later after sch she's cmg my hse..hahah gotta pack my hse abit liao..hehehehe

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i still think of u
if only u were here to share my ups and downs..
ha...pray tat everything goes smoothly for u
dun gif up on me ya? cos
U MEAN ALOT TO ME

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Saturday, September 23, 2006~~

9:05 AM

haiz..damn shitty NTA
tat idiot screaming at me
hey look here..who's fault..? do i know there are matches on? the timing and all that shit!!
did i not wake u up twice?

u dun wanna wake up dun cm pouring ur *#@&#&& at me lah... and use the pc..im working on my script leh...can spare some tots for me or nt...BH

e'time like tat distort my tots for my work...hw i feel? u insensitive idiot!
u lucky i always tolerated.. i hate saying this-->if i burst i tell u i really gonna leave u some day for sure!! and im not turning my head bk to take a look! and i wnt shed a single tear!

im so damn it lah...

haiz...really gt no mood sia...lost interests in e'thing...kns..sbs
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when u cmg bk?
i need a
comforter...
listener..
a shoulder to lean on...
im so tired...so tired..simply so so sian abt e'thing lah ArGhhh....
im so afriad i can't make it this time...

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Thursday, September 21, 2006~~

7:29 PM

ydae Bryan went fishing wif his class at pasir ris...he caught 7 guppies hm..1 "capsized" when i fetch him hm..he so upset cos hubby threw the dead one into the dustbin..this morning he keep asking me where is the dead one? wa...so cute la boy..

tell u something more funie...last nite, bryan supposed to ge bed le..then he asked for sweet, i said no, but he boldly took one from hubby and ate it...
i pretended to fall aslp..he tried calling me but i jus pretend nt to hear..he trying hard to wake me up..when i finali woke up i went to sit in front of pc...he still calling me..but i continue to pretend nt hearing him..then hubby told him.."u eat sweet , mummy angry...u dun eat sweet mummy will sayang u" guess wat..he went to spit the sweet away, washed hands came running to me...opned his mouth.."mummy, ni kan...no sweet le.." aiyo tell me hw to be angry? he's simply so cute lah...love him to bits... so i hugged him and told him in the eyes...no sweets before bed..no sweets when mummy or papa fetch him hm fr sch...understd? he nodded and said yes..haha ...he's my sunshine la!! love u bryan

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its sunny Friday leh...no sch today...METTA meeting cancelled...abit sians..cos had been looking fwd to teach the lovely kids there...

hmm...supposed to start my Health & Nutrition paper last nite..then i fell alsp AGAIN wif bryan till this morning...wa...now then i knw wat gd slp meant...hahhaakns didnt start my paper at all...wth..this morning tot of starting my paper...but dun seem to have the mood sia...hahaha guess wat..went to do hsework lor
like mad woman like tat lah..washing the windows...changing the sofa covers....doing laundry...etc..etc..kns rite...and here im taking a break ..blogging lor...wth ...sbs lah..

suddenly like lost interest in things leh..y har? hahaha can somebody tell me?
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loving ppl isnt tat hard after all
the issue is have r u committed to do it fr ur heart? do u mean it?
if yes..then show it! dun wait le...
Love is Unconditional...so i wnt expect u to return me in folds..
watever u receive fr me..hope u will cherish and remember me---> ur soulmate!

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Tuesday, September 19, 2006~~

4:00 PM

wa...1 week files again..here updating my 1 week..
haha

can die lah tell u the truth..this course is damn intense...i may end up with panda eyes and look older without sufficient sleeps and nutritious meal...eat too much maggie mee..stayed up for 3 nites in a row again...slpt for 2 hrs + like tat...and now spare some time to BLOG! -.-"

haiz..but the process is "enriching" haha u can say i m crazy..cos tend to research more and widen some knowledge (OCB= orh ..chey bah) haha like real..but also glad to know who are the ones standing with u haha till the end...Friendship is wat i found again!!
I also learnt to be more steady in the sense tat no matter hw hurry or panicky i am... it doesnt help the situation at all...calm and steady shall be my motto for these 4 papers lah..

I was a lousy friend in fact..cos always fell aslp during the timing of 11pm to 2.30am..then suddenly awake and continue the paper writing.. haha poor kimmie..keke..left alone and she's so cute msg me to wake me up..lol.. thanks so much..duno where i wld be if nt for u...(CB) without ur wake up calls..i dun think i can finish my paper early..and have time to counter chk if i've done it the right way.. Magical hugs has been our pillar of support ya?

hee...tats all...now looking forward to the Play..hopefully i can grasp the role well..cos im teacher..kns..lol

Thanks God for teachings!

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still miss u .... need to talk to u leh.... too much things to share..haha
reception no good or company neow?
cldnt get u at all
WHERE ON EARTH HAVE U BEEN neh?!!!
can someone tell me?

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Wednesday, September 13, 2006~~

10:39 PM

wa..torture...tell u
the last time was like 7yrs ago staying up late for projects...now got wat conceptual paper..so kns..

felt damn stressed after reading friends' work..all of theirs looked similar, except mine..wth..mayb i reali did it wrongly...sikali flung the module..tats wat im afraid the most!!
SBJL!!

came hm today after washing up..knocked out till 930pm//steady hor
then still got the running record and to bring work samples for tmr Sandra's class..
and then hor still got to bring wat personal item for HL's class..me really gg crazy..but was glad that i've got the momemtum to do all lah...so not so bad..

I thank God for all these.. I learnt the value of life..

lol

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sufficient sleep is impt to longer learning journey ahead
3 sleepless nites..causes me alot of "damage"
1. eye bag and dark rings
2. short temper - sorry hubby..my loving dear.temper rises the moment both of us fighting over the use of pc...haha...haiya..buy me a laptop leh..can settle 3/4 of the fights issue..lol..FAT HOPE, i noe u wld say..haha
3. mental blackout
4. falling aslp unconciously
5. shivering like nobody biz
6. lost interests in things - sorry bryan, my dear son...didnt spend enough time with u..thank God for u..Mummy can walk this far.. Love u to bits...
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human beings are such funie creatures.
some can click like nobody biz..
some can be surface friends but when cm to working together, its like making devil work wif angels..lots of conflicts..lvl of tolerance/patience has to be there...
some..haha..see the face oso sian..like wanna fight liao ..needless to say working together..can forget it totally.
haiz..tats life i guess..

God places sore thumbs not for No reasons...its wat u haf learnt from these sicking sore thumbs..and most imptly...have u done ur best in bringing the ANGELside of these sore thumbs out?

I think i havent been tat wonderful..cos i've been simply complaining and nagging..and havent done my part to be an angel to the sore thumbs in order to get their angels out...so utlimately this is wat i've learnt
the desired outcome of any relationship..depends on u, and of cos nt forgetting the other party oso got a part to play.
treat others like u want them to treat u

i m mean, sarcastic, hot temper, sickening at times...lol its inate in me..but its nv an excuse lah!! wake up!! haha...
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I LOVE U
U LOVE ME
WE ARE EACH OTHERS' SUNSHINE
LETS MAKE EACH OTHERS' DAY - A MEMORABLE ONE

LIVE LIKE ITS THE LAST

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Saturday, September 09, 2006~~

6:55 PM

finali made it a pt to bring Bryan to swim ydae at JE Sports Complex..haha
3 of us all tanned sia..me turning red actuali..haha ard my nose and part of cheeks..

hm..lao er came to dad's place wif Dion & hubby...wa Dion really grown up and is well fed ...she's so CUTE !! how i wish i had a daughter as well! can dress her up..aiyo so CUTE!!! love her to bits!

Aiyo so jialat..why did lao er go tell mum tat i quit my job? i've been trying hard to keep it from both side parents!!! hopefully pa & ma buy my story!! abt me jus making noise over the work scope!

haha..went JP wif Qi, did some shopping! haha bought a printer for myself (well hubby sonspored 1/3 of the amt) then FINALI ate some sushi!!! hahaha wa..its like me having craving for it since duno when liao..jus managed to eat it ydae with Qi...haha..

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This morning..me still pigging...9.15am Jennifer msg me to go IMM wif her..of cos i ON her lor...hahaha..think bcos she paiseh..she didnt acc me out on Friday after my makeup lessons..anyway missed her too lah..so gg out later at 1130am for lunch and shop again there!! hahaha

actuali im supposed to make specs leh today...got to go to MArina find Lina to make..abit far and sianz...lazy lah! lol so go out wif Jen suan le...hehe

AIYO!!! i havent do my conceptual paper for HL!!! die la...ydae nv do...today nv do again..wed hw to submit?? sianz..i really lazy to read up to write up leh!! damn sianz...lol

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save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Friday, September 08, 2006~~

2:44 PM

haha..so lax le...finali got over wif the presentation of the toy project ydae..wonder hw we fare in tat cos nobody asked any questions after our presentation!!i even heard Dr Reena yawning!! haha..is it too many presentation to rate or ours simply bored u to death?! hahaha aiya not gg to think abt it le...cos my Bryan Loves wat we have created!! at least there's someone whom appreciates it !! =)

finali 1st time able to get onto my bed before 11pm..and slept thru till nxt morning 7am..wonderful slp!! haha but i got a nightmare sia...dreamt of me doing washing of some drinking bottles..then one of it as i tried to pour away the remaining fluid, came out a dead rat with part of the ear are dropped off...and oh man its still ALIVE!! scare the shit out of me sia...then guess wat i took a stick and tried to throw it down the flat out of the windows lah...then i woke up le..

duno is there any meaning to this dream or nt...scare the shit out of me...hahaha..
is it something i shd haf let go long time ago and tat something is jus like tat rat..which is actually partially rotten?

haha..duno lah...anyway..today the make up lesson is so sian without kimmie ard..(oei better see doc and get well lah) and also afew of the classmates like Puja(stomachache), Aida (lazy to come), Diana...etc.etc..many lah..the class abit empty lor..haha and without fail that Badminton player got lots to crap today..to bad kimmie & Puja nt ard..they will laugh their butts off their seats de..lol btw... "Nancy" found new kakis..Ellen (poor thing)! haha was joking on it with Ernie.. (i was mean lah ok? hahaha)

though its kit kat time le...but i feel so lousy today...haha...duno leh..but after blogging me gg to slp again..to recover all those hrs i lost over the projects...hahha (same to kimmie...slp more lah..think u didnt slp enuff tats y the running nose keeps "running nonstop"..hahaha)

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my fingers are not obedient again
said nt to msg again still went on
knowing tat the reply is always those few words
i really asked for it
anyway
nothing u do is gonna upset me in any way
cos "God placed sore thumbs in the way, to mould me into a better person"
haha so u r one of those..and im sure i can overcome it in no time
TEACH ME LOVE

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Sunday, September 03, 2006~~

1:56 AM

wa...jus got bk from "toy factory" hahaha
today met Kim & PK to make the toy for our presentation nxt thurs
damn stressed can..cos fairy's team almost done!! and wrapping up on nxt MON!! wth

but me damn pleased with wat we have completed as at today lor..."CHIO" is the word and "STEADY" lah!!! sure the kids will love them...so CUTE can!!
hahaha own self praising for the work done!! hahaha

its been such a long time since i actually stayed at friend's hse do project till so late...hahah so " huai nian" those days wif Joelyn,Jeri,Sri, Shanshan..then we were also damn power stayed up the whole nite at Joelyn's hse..i still remembered i was the powergirl then
i can "dong" till the nxt morning still power..haha and ya..we were watching "LA BI XIAO XIN" then..hahaha funie sia...and the project turned out great!! and we did well then!!

tmr we gg to continue the cutie toy thing again..haha...then there's powerpoint thing lor
so sian k!! 15mins to present..damn sick lor...but think Dr Reena 's class still not so bad..so ok lah.. do it jus for her bah,..hahah *FAINT!!*

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i online / u off
u online / i off
we both online - i msn / u no respond
we both online - u msn / i no respond
i sms u / u no reply at all, then nxt day u replied me saying u were sleeping
u sms me / i duno hw to respond cos it always shw that u r busy recently

HEY, DON'T U REALISE THAT THERE'S SOMETHING CALLED "DIAL THE NUMBER"?
CALL ME LAH WILL U, IDIOT!!!

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Friday, September 01, 2006~~

2:29 AM

An Aspiration (erm...correct? aiya duno watz tat word..)
by William Purkey

"Dance like no one is watching,
Love like you'll never be hurt,
Sing like no one is listening,and
Live like it's heaven on earth"

It's got to come from the heart if you want it to work.

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wat am i waiting for?
wat am i searching for?
wat am i looking forward to? seriously i've no idea either..
Is it :-
a friend?
a companion?
a lover?
a hubby?
a confide?
a soulmate?
WHAT?!! haha

Who am i to u?
Any place in ur heart? Got Priorty? or preference? again no idea abt it lah...

i'm in the state of mind distortion...mental disintergration...its a torture seriously

save me from the nothing I’ve become..