> bring me to life.

~~Sunday, July 22, 2007~~

2:33 PM

Appreciation Day

there are many people i wanna thank
so here i am listing my special thanks to them..

My parents - Papa, mama for helping me along since aHbEn's arrival...looking after Bryan gege for me during weekends so i can rest more when aHbEn sleeps...

hweeqi, my youngest sis - thanks for always being there when i need help...hardly say a "NO" to me when i need help...and brightens my day with laughters and pics of ahBen and bryan...thanks so much...be it accompanying me do shopping and stuffs...bring aHbEn to polyclinic...fetch and babysi bryan...so much more and thanks alone doesn't depicts my appreciation deep down inside

kimberly - thanks for being my listening ear..though ur listening thru smses that i sent u...thank u for teaching me the proper way to say a prayer to Jesus and see the miracle on aHbEn's heat rashes and jundice...thank u for who u r...

cow - though didnt really help but he slog for this family when im fully into the ECE course and pregnancy, confinement...now tat i've secured a job...i can help out in the family expenses...hugs..and to add...i wanna a baby girl next ok? hahaha(stressed...kekeke)

bryan - thank u for being so brotherly to aHbEn and frankly ur vr obedient to me when cow is nt ard...love u deep deep..

and of cos cannot dun thank my in laws...all of them helpout in my confinement...lol...thanks!

then of cos Jesus for answering my prayers and Kim's...thank Him from deep down and on behalf of bryan and aHbEn...and kim...heheh...

U all mean so much in my life...
Ups or Downs...ur never once let go of my hands...
having Faith in me..thanks thanks and thanks...
BIG hugs and smucks...love u all deeply...

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Wednesday, July 18, 2007~~

10:19 PM

I love to see Bryan in this FOX shirt tat Kavica bought for him...not bcos its green...lol but he look nice in it!
and these pics are taken on AhBEn's full mth... great pics rite? thx to Kavica!! and so so happen that they all wore GREEN!!!

i personally like this pic the most..they all- kelyn, bryan and kavica...lol...greenies of the day...so cute

sometimes children do get E-Mos oso...look at bryan.... he's a good example....

he always bully my parents to get toy cars for him...see he smiling away cos he got a new toy again

Bryan: hey u looking at me? cos I'M BIG & U'RE small...

Look at me and say u're younger...

lol tats wat he likes to say nowadays...

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Sunday, July 15, 2007~~

9:59 PM

hey ...today make posting on ah ben's sleeping postures...
as u go thru' u will find that his fav posture is the Surrender version...lol
and of cos all babies love to slp on mummie's chest... and they tend to slp much better on their tummies...so they get less fright from sudden sounds or rays of light...
enjoy viewing...hehehe

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Friday, July 13, 2007~~

11:03 AM

oh man...tot the chinese characters gonna work here...guess im wrong...
but tat day when i post the chinese characters can view sia...wth...anyway nt gg to remove that la...lol

these few days weather havent been really good...oni managed to tan ahben for 2 days for the whole of this week? argh tmr gg for the blood test again..
heard fr an auntie during my last visit to the polyclinic..she said boil the chinese herb "Ling Yang" with water for ben to drink..the yellowness will go down and the bilirubin lvl in his blood stream will drop tremendously...she claimed tat one of her relative's baby the nxt day need to go for blood transfusion due to the seriousness in her yellow, the night b4 they boiled this water for her to drink the nxt day b4 the transfusion, they did another blood test to chk the lvl...see that the lvl dropped alot to the lvl it only requires to monitor no nid to change blood..
if thats true then great sia...i oso dun wish ah ben kip having to "let go" his blood for these tests for so many times...pains me sia...

haiz...mayb i've lazed ard at hm too long wif ahben..or mayb i jus wanna see the process of "changes" in ahben, im like finding excuses nt gg bk to workforce sia..lol...then again i was thinking whether to go bk to my former line...cos can get much more pay...so can lighten cow's burden as a sole breadwinner in this family...hmm...then again i realise i need to get mil to look after ahben if im gg bk to work...tats a big headache for me sia...if only my mum can look after...lol at least anything still can bargain wif own mum...hahhaa...

saw advertisement in newpapers centre looking for teachers...but im so hestitant to call them up even jus checking out their location whether near or nt...cos i've not finalized hw sia ahben...(see another good excuse)

er....headache headaches headaches...

understd fr Kim, fairy got ernie to her ctr as AT...hope she gets the job...i think her family needs the $ more than i do... hehe...guess wat i msg puja asking her if her ctr needs more teachers...i go there work la...at alexandra hospital...frankly speaking...nw i wanna get a job where i got frends ard de lor...last time younger...can anyhw go chiong for any job...nw think i old liao..machiam abit scaredy cat like tat...need companion...lol can die la like tat...
jus pray tat puja ctr gt a vancany la...though there were 2 ctrs which claimed that they will hold the post vacant till i delivered...where got such good thing rite...lol...haiz...

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Wednesday, July 11, 2007~~

8:05 PM

思念是一种病

当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
一辈子有多少的来不及
发现已经失去
最重要的东西
恍然大悟早已远去
为何总是在犯错之后
才肯相信错的是自己
他们说这就是人生
试著体会试著忍住眼泪
还是躲不开应该有的情绪
我不会奢求世界停止转动
我知道逃避一点都没有用
只是这段时间里尤其在夜里
还是会想起难忘的事情
我想我的思念是一种病
久久不能痊愈
当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
汲汲营营
忘记身边的人需要爱和关心
藉口总是拉远了距离
不知不觉无声无息
我们总是在抱怨事与愿违
却不愿意回头看看自己
想想自己到底做了甚黱蠢事情
也许是上帝给我一个试炼
只是这伤口需要花点时间
只是会想念过去的一切
那些人事物会离我远去
而我们终究也会远离
变成回忆
oh 思念是一种病
oh 思念是一种病一种病
多久没有说我爱你
多久没有拥抱你所爱的人
当这个世界不在那黱美好
只有爱可以让他更好
我相信一切都来得及
别管那些纷纷扰扰
别让不开心的事停下了脚步
就怕你不说就怕你不做
别让遗憾继续一切都来得及

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Monday, July 09, 2007~~

9:02 AM

不能说的秘密

冷咖啡离开了杯垫
我忍住的情绪在很后面

拼命想挽回的从前
在我脸上依旧清晰可见

最美的不是下雨天
是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐 oh
回忆的画面
在荡着秋千梦开始不甜

你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
或许命运的签只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋这一季的秋天
飘落后才发现这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Saturday, July 07, 2007~~

9:32 PM

yoyoyoyoyo....
so long since last blogged...
got many things to jot but plain lazy to type..
stare stare at the screen, logged on blogger but nv do any updates...lol
can die

haiz..the usb cable got problem so no pics update for this posting...saddening arh...nvm..i try my best to use the camera instead...lol

hm...jus a quick update on aHbEn's 1mth celebration cmg sat 14 July 2007.
will be held at my humble home for simple lunchie...
all invitations sent out alrdy...(but i didnt invite many to cm cos $diet, only vr vr close friends, family members and cow's collegues - Ms Kelynnolgy ur on my invitation list oso!!)

actually we havent settled the buffet thingy...cos im getting fr my Cousin Ah Kiat's company to do it...he such a sweetie can? he told me to "poh" his name - SAGA when placing order on Mon to get the dishes changed and get a special discount...lol so cute...

then aHbEn is such a "hottie" ok>? he gets heat rashes all over his head and face..now his back oso kena..so poor thing..bt the doc say he will grow out of it...u see alrdy u feel itchy for him...
his jundice lvl down by 20 only..so on Fri the doc made him do another bloodtest to determine if his jundice belongs to the good or the bad type...good type then end of the story, no nid kip gg bk to clinic for followup; but the yellowness on his skin might last up till he's 3mth old....bad one leh got to go NUH for treatment...(he has gained weight ok!! fr brith 2.875kg to 3.740kg!!drinking milk well, pass urine and motion well too...so pray hard he has got the good type of jundice)
PLS u all kind souls help me pray that aHbEn's of the good type of jundice...cos vr heartache to see him kena pricked on his sole time and again jus to chk his jundice lvl...

so much of aHbEn, my beloved boy Bryan has been such a sweetie...he's my laughter of the day and nightmare at times...
frankly speaking, he's grown to such a good boy i must say...
he will ask ppl for permission to do certain things...he will at his own will ask to practise his writings...do colourings..
he will sing songs to u...dance for u...hahhaa...and best of all...he will cm KISSING u for no reason to begin with and end up saying I Love U...oh...heart melts...hahaha
he still crys when he doesnt get wat he wants...BUT when he's told of the reason behind the NONO from me...he stops crying and ended up nagging me with these lines "Mummie, wo bu yao ku. wo yao ting ni de hua. wo yao guai..Mummie sorry, wo bu yao zhe yang, wo bu yao zhe yang..."sobbs... hehe...sometimes duno to be angry with him or laugh or melt for him...hehhee
still must control and be stern la...

Im Looking fwd to meet all of u invitees this coming sat!!
let's have a good catchups and fun and joys being us again!

cheerios!
BryanBen de Mummie ;)

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Sunday, July 01, 2007~~

3:05 PM

Some random pics taken so far....

Weather was not so good...unable to tan AhBen in the morning...

This is the ME during the confinement...aiyoo...so fat..and shagged look...
Bryan as usual bullying my dad to feed him dinner....
And he enjoys my dad's company alot...
And this is Bryan...hahha...wanna do some colouring so he spread out his books to see which pic he wanna add colours on...

This is Ben, surrendering to Xiaoball's phototaking

Ok, one more only rite XiaoBall? wait let me pose...

Again?? i tot u finished? how many u wanna take?

OKOK...i surrender to u la...LAST HOR!

His foot so tiny on my palm...hahha cutie...

And some more random pics taken of Ben...

Ok this is taken to shw u the OVERSIZED shorts he's wearing...lol...omg

And i personally love this pic...so smart rite> must knw who took this pic...ME LA...lol

this is hw he look after morning tanning

finally captured one with a smile on...hehehe

This is Ben during the morning tanning in the nearby park...

Adooi...enuff pics le...hahhaha....
and gosh i really put on too much weight and FATS...i wonder if i really can slim back ...????

save me from the nothing I’ve become..