> bring me to life.

~~Tuesday, December 25, 2007~~

5:25 AM

Merry Xmas

last weekend went bugis and got myself a k770i hp instead..lol
nice...user friendly functions and i got addicted to the games in it...kekeke...sleek hp and light.so i got a few hps to sell in the market liao...lol...all samsungs and sony ericsons...lol
got my dad samsung L760 too.hehe i oso like tat hp...the functions are wat i like too...keke...and gosh...dad so vain took a photo of himself sia...and i naughtily set tat pic as his wallpaper!! hahah

and u nv knw the world is so small...hahah sg i mean...
i bump into ernie and BF at marina sq!
she's so radiant!!!
she's being nourished with love from FAD(if i get his name correctly)
we hugged like long lost friends like tat at the mall...lol
ok...so we must meet up over the weekends sometime when kimmie got free.. =)
i've got so much to let out!

Thanks Don, hahaha...he gave me suduku king game, knowing im IN for this game.
=) apprecaited from my heart... lol
can kill time during journey to work...at home when i cnt slp..
the numberings are not solid so abit difficult to read initially...slowly got used to it and the game just come in very easy to handle....lol
he warned me of the lvl of difficulty...
i said nvm cos im nt in for great timing to be frank! lol

Thanks Shifu...hahaha...always treat me to places to eat nice and good food...lol...very big share sia...so supposedly i grow fatter...but i lost weight!!! keke...back to the days when i just started work with TC...yippees for me of cos...BUT i still gt my flabby tummy sticking out! hahaha i think it got overstretched due to 2 live births... my boys la... =)

so to end today's posting... here's some ben's photos for delight

he's checking out my k770i

ben always got this contagious smile tat kills me

and the frowns that got entangled at times

and be sure to find my stoning effects on him!!

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Monday, December 17, 2007~~

11:56 PM

For these long, I thought I've found the right shoulders to lean, to rest, to cry upon...
but I was wrong...

anyway God didn't invent tears for nothing... supposedly to let woman release their pentup emotions...but just don't understand why men can't just let woman cry for all they want, then ask for the reasons when they're done. still wanna command woman to "stop it" ... wth...

TO ALL THE MEN OUT THERE!!!
hug the crying women so that they can feel your love and they will let you know what the tears are for? You never know it could be rolled down for your sake! you never know...

For your words... I've come to my senses and come up with these -
(try to digest, i know its very chim)

Don't try to lean, rest on others' shoulders,
You never know just when you need them, the owners just runaway...
Don't try to find supports,
For you never know when they're gonna giveway and topple...
Find yourself!
For you're your own pillar of strength in life!
The inner strength that can overcome all odds...

so i've been a good gal... keeping silly thoughts and unhappiness at bay...
burying myself at work in the days,
surface myself with my boys in the evenings..
and laying flat on my cosy bed at night...
and yes health hasn't been improving... =) anyway consulted a 3rd GP... changed medications hope it helps... hypersensitive airways he concluded.. hmm... so it means breathe in too hard or too much Don was asking me...lol =)
anyway Don, thanks for making my day today! at least i learnt that you guys are working well/fine with me...
=) of cos thanks to shifu! im still learning from him...

oh ya...my k850i... i wanna change hp la!!!
getting papa a new hp too the samsung hp...the numbers and words are huge...so he can read without his reading glasses on... =)

lol oh yes...ben ben has cultivated a bad habit of looking at ppl when they eat or drink... machaim so chiam, didnt get to eat or drink for damn long ...lol ... cute la...nxt time got camera, i video it down...damn funny.
bryan has been behaving great...but i jus scolded him harshly for rubbing his eyes.. wa lau damn swollen lor...tmr morning the teacher gonna nag again... haiz...

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Sunday, December 16, 2007~~

10:41 PM

i was once being asked " what do u project urself to be when u aged? "
i stoned out and kept quiet..

"i saw myself holding hands with my hubby, playing with my grandchildren...we all live in a big house..one level for each generation.. and above all, we are all damn cheerful and carefree..." she shared it so steadily with me. then she turned bk to me.. " so...urs? wa... must be damn power la..so long havent tell me.."

i looked at her and smiled vaguely... " i can't see anything..no projection. the person who dared not look into tmr, has got hard time projecting into future. if u asked me again..its blank." and i looked away...sighing..no point envying her la..i told myself...lol.

i just pray,praying hard that my boys -bryan and ben will have lots of love, free from hurts, pain, grudges, grieves, illness...and that they will enjoy and cherish every moment of their life journey. Amen.

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ben ben has grown his 2 lower incisors teethon his 6mth!! yipee!
he has started weaning- taking boiled potatoes, fish porridge, brown rice paste, biscuits and he loves bread! lol ... he loves apples as well.. =) he's a happy baby! smile at him and be sure to get another one or more back from him.
he's kinda calling "pa" or "ma"...vr cute! and vvr touched...i hope u can hear him call "pa"
he's kinda chatty too...he will make sounds to respond back to u as u talk to him...he loves ppl to chat with him...socialable child! thank God.

poor bryan gotten pinched badly by cow...haiz...till bruised...real blue black and its immediate effect.can u imagine that? of cos he cried vr badly la....
dad rubbed zambak onto the affect area...and cow still can say "its not purposely lor"
fine but thats not the way to teach a child to refrain from opening the refrigerator! goodness me...sometimes i jus blame myself for bringing the boys into this world... aren't loved wholesomely... I'M SoRRY

if time can travel back to the past... i wished i've been single all the way till the end.mayb things won't be so bad after all...

I love this song very muchie!
if u ever drop by to read my blog...i hope u hear this song.. love it like i do, cos it speaks of me...lol

范瑋琪 - 是非題

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Friday, December 14, 2007~~

10:05 PM

Say that You Love Me

im very tired...vr tired of everything...
u nv asked if i like the way we are right now...
all u asked for is me to be obedient...
i jus needa be loved...
im lacking lotz of tat...
i hate emptiness...
from lovers to strangers and now...loners?
arh... will i survive?

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Wednesday, December 12, 2007~~

12:35 AM

1st of all...big thank you to Don =) yummy sushi for lunch at tampines stadium...cos he striked 4D over the weekends...
thank u shifu for sending me to MLC sembawang after work...

then last but nt least...thanks to...
MLC sembawang... Tr Priscilla, Ji Hong Lao Shi, Tr Khim, Tr Selena...and my beloved Auntie Jesslyn and her 3 kids... for a wonderful nite out at Sun Plaza...again had sushi for dinner... lol

i cant deny i missed u all...especially the kiddos... its a different feel gg bk there to visit the kids and friends there.... =) so happening to be greeted once i stepped into the centre...machiam like VIP like tat...lol hugs...aiyo kiddos i missed u all... adele, jinglu, kavan, fanglin, alyssa, timothy, charlene, ally, joelyn,zann, peiyu, anthea, weng suen, jian an, ed, sarah, jiaxin, owen, all the K1s,K2s...aiyo... i jus missed u all.... u all seem happy to see me again!!
and wa my goodness...all of u grown taller...some thinner...jus over one and a half mth's time!!

u can nv imagine that Ji Lao Shi and i had the same water bottle and its PINK! then she made me realised we even had the same shoe designs jus tat mine is white, hers is in red! wat a coincident!!! lol

=)) drastic changes in MLC...too drama oso...anyway... good that Pris u r leaving tat place at the rite time...all the best to ur new centre... i hv faith in u.. cheers...

OK, these are the photos that Pris threatened to post on web to advertise...anyway im ok with tat...lol cos i told her these photos are really nice...hahaha and they told me only my self portriat is photogenetic...the rest of them wasnt good..cos can see ances and stuffs...lol...i got ance tat day too... try to spot it la on my face...
i tink i laughed too much tats y i dun even hv to put on any makeups to enhance my looks...lol

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Saturday, December 08, 2007~~

3:26 PM

IT'S SUCH A SADDENING DAY

it's just too much...
too much for me to stomach my tears...

give me hopes to look forward to...
and then see them crushed

i dunno how to cry... jus dunno

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Wednesday, December 05, 2007~~

4:00 AM

ok jus wanna jot this down...

hugs to kimmie...
ur wonderful and great!
dun be disheartened
(its jus a part of growing phase at work)
u will get over it soon... put ur mind to the bright side of things and things will get better... hahah...its the mindset thingy... ( say this to urself " I'm doing great, there's nothing to worie. cos God is always there to show me the way. i can do it and am doing well! ") and TARAH..... u will feel good... hehehe... i know its easier said than done...but frankly tats wat i've been doing.. jus keep telling myself i can overcome...overcome the odds...be it at work, family... =)) im sure u can do better than me. prove me hor... =))

many thanks to shifu's patience and guidance at work... still got plenty "ropes" to retrieve from u la... hahhaa
u said " heng jian dan de la. kai shi ni hui jian wang, bu sou... jiu le, xiang jian wang yi xia tuo nan."
hahaha.... i really STM leh... haiz... hahaha but this has bcm my challenge lor...shifu giving me a grace period of 6mths to pick up everything from him--> as much as i can absorb and then be independent... now counting down, im only left with another 4mths to go? i hope i can do well and live up to his and BOSS's expectations!

arh...toking abt BOSS...wa lau eh... can u pls stop breathing down my neck...lol
the finance ppl gonna kill me if i keep on calling... lol sorie if i tell u white lies ...hehehe....

well...learnt tonnes ydae...and i had jus finished formulating sheets after sheets of documents...(seems hectic but its only the beginning tat is taxing... those tat follows will be easier to manupliate after this setup i've done) too many figures to handle tat my brain jus cnt stop working so here blogging lor! lol...haiz... and tmr its gonna be a very damn long day MEETING, MEETING and meetings.... 8.30am @ Potong Pasir, then AMK tc, then continue my tender preparations...

sorie Pris, Ji Hong, Khim... cnt meet u gals later today...mayb tmr? and ya collect my lovely photos from u all...lol (lovely? Pris wanna post my photos online to advertisement my "face" if i dun collect. threaten me har? i call police hor... lol )

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I JUST WANT TO HEAR UR VOICE,
SAY MY NAME...
IT SOUNDS SO SWEET, BABY...
WE AIN'T HAVING MUCH TIME TOGETHER...
I MISS THEM LOTS...

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Saturday, December 01, 2007~~

11:30 AM

save me from the nothing I’ve become..