> bring me to life.

~~Friday, June 30, 2006~~

8:50 PM

hmm..damn moody..duno why..
keep thinking where shd i go/head from here...damn lost..

today gg papa's hm..haiz..duno why just feel damn...duno wat word to use to express myself sia..kns

anyway..feeling lost ..lost in direction is not a gd feeling..but kena asked by 2 strangers the direction to BOON LAY..haiz...after guiding them..i feel shitty sia...i dun even noe my own direction in life..why am i guiding others..damn shit.

is very blue ok? i jus dun understd...haiz..

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Sunday, June 25, 2006~~

1:40 AM

today damn angry..
9am Finance that idiot manager called me..
"eh the filing room got clear or nt?"
i jus woke up so abit blur.."clear??clear wat? u didnt say wanns clear ydae ok?"
"whao lau..today start renovate mah..didnt clear hw to do work?"
me angry ok..such gd slp kena awaken by her..knn"Oei..hw i noe u gg to do there?i got the plans wif me meh? want me to oversee gif the plans to me lah..u call my boss ask him to provide u the workers.." and hang the phone..

kns..cant slp le lor ..then..go online..tot of watching naruto on YouTube..then the hp ring again..nw its my foreman!!kns..nt a gd sign.."serene..think u have to cm bk now lah..manager got prob..blahblah...knn..then haf to rush down in cab lor.. tot of go see bryan at ma's plcae 1st then go office..whole day cant see him liao lor...

reached orfis to realise this idiot winnie the pooh bor..didnt bother to pack her workstation things and is commanding ppl to do this do tat..then still dilly dally..think wat her father's place//so wat if she's the only child..all ppl cant always gif in one mah..

best part..our office fengshui master..instruct me to get him 2workers at 9am SHARP..report to him and he will instruct them to shift all his stuffs for him..but cannot be later than 9am..kns..

already damn sianz liao..yet the FM is no where to be seen..my boss laji best.."i got ask TOm, but he's gg malaysia..me gg hm liao u alone can okie?"
hell man wat is this..whole office got so many contr workers running here and there..think i really wonder woman meh? "u say can can lor..u boss mah..ask FM Josephine to cm k..me nt gg to be responsible for any losses in finance hor" and walked off..

kns..all these managers..oni noe hw to talk talk ..open mouth..titi tata..duno the workers are oso human meh..nnb...

work till ard 5plus this FM so daring jus walk off and cm bk ard 9plus..knn..i was jus hoping some of her finance things are lost!! so angry...

work till ard 10plus..hubby cm bk to accompany me in office..sianz ji buah..lazy to get my own workers up at this time cos they doing mkt washing..so i ask hubby help me ..2 of us went up 2nd flr carry down the meeting table and chairs..hubby angry k..cos he say y cant wait till Mon..
i was thinking..u tot can wait..didnt finish moving the things oledi damn jialat liao..wait mon no meeting rooms..they gonna scream at me..then hw..i die on the spot meh..

haiz,,finally all settles..the FM jus one word.."i go liao hor" and phew she's gone..knn..i havent lock up office leh..aircon,doors lgts all not off leh..so many areas to walk to make sure all off..nnb..hubby scolding again..cos me work so late havent go hm..he cant watch soccer..think he lost the game if nt his tone not like tat de..anyway..haiz..me tired too mah..

finally all done..arming office tat time to realise system got prob cant arm office!! whao hell man..hubby angry again..i ask him help me chk back door lock mah..then i try again..again failed..so called Ademco lor..ask for help cant lock office..have to wait for their technician to call bk..wat the hell!!
hubby scoldscolding..sianz..then i call tat idiot FM josephine say i cant arm.."sorie leh..i didnt noe cant arm office..but me at Jurong liao..too far cant help u.." NNB..KNN.. i was like" win liao lor"
ademco called me bk then. and did a bypass then can arm..finally can lock up office..tat was already 12 am liao k!!!

got hm cant slp too angry!!

all the office ppl esp the managers all like piece of shit!!! ESP MY LAO NU REN manager...pui!!

end of this office renovation work..me gg to resign liao..
gd luck to the nxt victim!!

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Wednesday, June 21, 2006~~

12:11 AM

haiz..gonna complain again lor..haha

long time no blog liao..abit lazy and BZ to do it...*excuses*..haha anyway..jus summaried

18/6/06
Father's Day cum cousin's wedding at SUn Plaza.."kia hiang restaurant"...food there saltious..keke..anyway my cousin damn beauty tat day...elder one got pregnant and will be delivering nxt mth..so fast..so many ppl preganat and giving brith this yr.so many "doggies"

19/6/06
office reno contr supposed to carry out work today but nobody turned up..kena suan by collegues..toilets hacked so long liao havent start work..NB..all bcos of the lao nu ren..damn it..cos so many stir up..delay the work..still i kept quiet..wat can i do except kip chasing the contr lor..hahha

lazy to work today so actually sneaked out to ikea wif jenjen, eng & kit..we all go the canteen there drink and they eat lunch lah..then happily walk down to source for the message board requested by my GM to installed at the passageway before the toilet..

aiya..found the messageboard damn cheap $29..but i quoted my GM $70-$80 ++ and he still say "chaep lah..go buy and get the contr to install".. whao hahaha

by the time got bk office already gg 4pm..start to issue some works orders..and do some taking offs...damn sianz..cos the whole morning also stuck at pc..doing arrears updating till eyes nearly crossed..cos the ec-coordinator damn "ki lat" duno hw he managed to pass off as an arrears coordinator!! take my hat off him sia...when i took over i nearly fainted...duno watz his updating...natin on the spreadsheet...NB...

392 cases ..he "expanded" the cases to near 700! so "ki lat" sia...but my GM asked me to take over my ex-collegue's position to learn new stuffs leh..KNN the lao nu ren..make me carry this arrears burden cos the previous one..too "ki lat" to carry on the duty..NB..wat haf i done to get this!!

20/6/06

as usual...chased the reno contr..haha..updating the arrears spreadsheet..damn sianz..tot of gg to estates..but then hor the reno kena some prob..contr dare not carry on tiling the toilet.. kns jus tile according to the drawing by the artchitect lah..still ask me if wanna modify..wait auditor catch me hw goona answer..at least can blame the artchitect and lao nu ren for the wrong selection of the measurement/materials lah//wat for i stupidly go modify myself..SIAO!!

chatted wif hui online..12 Aug expected delivery date..still havent found any gd solution for her confinement..so i suggested my hm as her last resort and ask her get ma to help out.
help out as in she resign and full time help her out..hahha..hopefully hui gather the courage to sound ma..or pa..and Joe..

took 5 at Han's wif jen, wong & ah men..and told them i made up my mind go take driving..hahah so i asked anger..if he got any lobang to get a gd teacher to teach..siao..he like my doremon lor..really got..hahah so me gotta go do booking liao and obtain my license!!!yipee

today went over to inlaw hse makan dinner...feifei ..my niece.. today kip smiling at me and cmg to me ask me carry her..whao..gonna strike 4D..or TOTO man!! and she wanna follow me hm..hahha crazy gal...her actions got bryan jealous..lol..

haiz..hopefully tmr will be a NEW DAY...aka chicken little's "kou tou chan"..

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Friday, June 16, 2006~~

8:11 AM

haha..today took off to attend bryan's teachers parents fellowship..in other wirds its wat layman call the take report card day lah..haha

sianz sia..everytime god must play this kind of game on me de..hell..took leave damn many calls for work..kns..cant have a gd break from work one..anyway..oso got up early 10am gg down to meet the teachers...

this Mdm Liu is a gd teacher leh i tell u..she can tell us alot abt bryan at school...not bad..then she also photocopied a few of the chinese songs and teachings for me to bring hm practise wif bryan..overll Mdm Liu said he's more stable at school now but still restless at class..hahah

come to art and crafts ...song & play he's the most hyper active one...hahaha..whao ..not bad then..

during the chat..bryan is the most happy person..noe y??
cos he had 2 pkt of drinks lor!!lol..we hardly allow him to take this drinks at hm or when we are out for meals..so he damn happy today..kekeke

sianz..tmr working..after work gg to Jiawei's hse visit her..tat day postponed mah..hehe..looking fwd to seeing her
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14/6/06
ydae too tired din blog on this..mayb add this piece of NEWS here then..
keke..
bryan went to his 1st excursion this yr..to the ZOO..whao he was hyper i tell u when i told him he's gg to zoo ydae..ydae morning when i left him at childcare he's like hack care abt me when he enter the gates..kns..otherwise everyday oso cry for 5 mins..after we go he's fine..hehe

he's anxious to see the animials sia..the teachers were complaining to me he's the only one kid kip running...i mean straying away from the whole group lor..anyway think he had fun then..they had KFC set meal fo rkids and he got an astro boy toy him..whao lau astro boy is my favourite leh..kekeke..

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Monday, June 12, 2006~~

7:45 PM

sian ji buah...
today gotta shit out the chokage problem wif the govt ppl..damn shitty really..
hw can they say no plans, no drawings on the sewerlines de...bloody hell one..

hahah..but still i got my plumbers to clear the chokage..then hor..damn paiseh.. go ask ard liao ..ask the ex, ex plumber boss to find that ..whao "yuan lai shi wo men de"
hahaha

then we chatted for quite awhile..he's a nice guy..hahah..then i told him of my intention to leave this company//he straight away ask me to join his company as a coordinator..but i told him..wait i kena scold from officers..lagi sianz..hahaha

anyway im looking fwd to work wif him too..cos he has a great team of workers so no issue to work as ccordinator..now is the salary issue..hahah

waiting for him to approach me again.. :-)

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Sunday, June 11, 2006~~

12:40 AM

heyhey..1st time eating out at Arena..somewhere near my hse there..
hmm..food there not bad sia..Tung Le Restaurant..

to celebrate my father in aw..mother in law & brother in law's bdae..all fall in the mth of June..
13, 15 & 16..whao seh...

eat till dropped...$250 for 7 adults & 2 kids..more than 10 course de food..so really worth the $..afterwhich all cm to my hse to cut cake..

Bryan kip pester my brother in law..holding onto the remaining candles..kip asking him "zhe si shen me lai de.." hahah can pengz answering the same qns over and over again till he gave up and ask Bryan to ask my little niece..hahahah bryan knew he trying to fool him..so he pretended to ask my niece once so gentlely and then turn away..a while later he came bk to ask him the same qns again..hahaha

think played too much..bryan cant get to slp early..
poor me...hahaha

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Thursday, June 08, 2006~~

5:19 PM

being stretched too much these days..haha

haiz that "lau nu ren"..i really cnt communicate wif him sia..anyway last nite got MP blk visit..whao lau damn long sia for such a small blk...anyway..only a couple of them got some complaints against us..keke so still ok lah..

hmm...sianz at work..jus feel like taking a break but too bad the office renovation work gonna start next week..i really cant afford to take break liao..must wait till nxt mth lor..haiz..

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got ask my sis in law to pack some infant clothes so can pass ah hui..hmm..2 bags full of clothes sia..hehe..hope she will go hm someday to pick them up..can save some $$..cos kids grow faster than u can think...
and i have knitted a small cutie cap for her baby..duno she will want it mah..but bryan wanna wear..keke too small for him lah...

hope she will pick them bk to her hm..hope she have arrange for someone to help her during her confinement..hmm..abit worie for her..cheeezzzzz

anyway thats all i can do for her..

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Saturday, June 03, 2006~~

2:03 AM

hmm..xiangyong came to pick me up at my mum's place..so nice of him!
he's still studying the course ..end of yr graduate..then haf to wait for casino to open then can job hop..hahhaa

aiya.. sianz..me duno hw to job hop..hahaha too bad sia..

bk in sec sch..abit weird feeling...
Gim Yong waited for us at the back gate to pass us the tickets. aiya heard that Yihao not cmg..hmm..somemore his gf as well...abit disappointed actually..haha
he's my puppy love at BBSS..hee though he's the one whom slient break wif me..during the awaiting for the release of O lvls..haiz...pity he didnt get me ..im such a gd WiFE..hahaha

the whole dinner didnt eat much..jus plain catching up wif all the classmates..haha so happy..but still not contented cos didnt get to see Yihao...heee..not missed him lah...jus wanna see hw playboy he has been cos Pinting say he still cant settle down..aiya...

then after dinner ended..we all went bk to the class4J..hahha..aiyo classroom machim smaller liao!!..or haf we really grown up so much tat the classroom "turned" smaller?keke duno..
in the class xiangyong was trying to get everyone recall where each and everyone's seating area and then enacted hw teachers reprimard and things like tat...we took some photos in the class too..haha..look like old kids graduation day..hahah

Aaron reminded me how i chided ShunHua during the lessons..cos he's making hell lots of noise..noise from using the correction tape..and he's scared of me being firece to him..and of cos arron had gd show to see and as well to tolerate our nonsense..haha so memorable days...

ya btw Aaron now so muscular liao..aiyo..better than my hubby..hahahha..feel like lying on his shoulders...boy man he's really grown so much..haha but still tok like a kid..he will be enrolling to SQ to be a steward? oh man..hahah all the best!!

the rest really not much changes..esp Cailing..whao lau eh...really cant make it leh her..still 4ever so blur sotong..cant remember who is who..hahah..Cailing ah mah!!

Faustina slimmed down alot sia..whao turned a pretty lady liao..hahah chiochio!!

now looking fwd for the 1st ever 4J class gathering to occur!! keke..cheers

save me from the nothing I’ve become..

~~Friday, June 02, 2006~~

5:08 PM

haiz...lazy to update..hahah

last 2 days was hell for my boy..
middle of the night he suddenly screamed & shout non-stop.no matter hw u try to calm him he raised his voice further...

limits being stretched,hubby slapped him ont his lips 3 times, while i was away in the kitchen making milk. the slap were so loud tat i cld hear fr the kitchen..can u imagine? of cos he cried even louder..

next thing i knew when i rushed bk, his lips were bleeding and swollen. haiz.. im so angry.. i quarrelled wif hubby for being harsh on him..

next morning brought him to sch, so pathetic...the teachers keep asking what happen...i duno wat to say he jus walked closer to me and hugged me tight... and looked away...my goodness..im almost to tears ..
told the teachers the father slapped him..tats y...the lips darken cos of the strength given onto him..so poor thing..my heart so aching...

after sch picked him up, his class teacher asked again wat happen..i said the same thing..but when teacher asked him, he dared nt say anything till he's out of the school gate...he said"papa da da leh.." and do the slap action on his mouth..."OMG"!!
im near to tears...as i asked him if it still hurts..."heng tong arh...mummy.."

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sickening man still thinks he's doing the right thing..cos bryan seems like trying hard to be closer and nicer to him so that he wont kena the harsh beatings again... bryan has grown up so much..

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*yawns* *sniff...sniff* im still down wif flu yet recovered..haha..ya so long le..
went to buy some baby stuffs for my gf,cos miting her later to see her baby boy..so happy for her... :-)

after which we are all heading down to BBSS for dinner wif all the old schoolmates...and teachers..hehe..looking fwd to tat.. :-) its been so many yrs since we left sch and so many of them i lost touch wif..hahha...aiya actually its me lazy to kip up wif them... always say no time..hahah..so this is the day liao...

save me from the nothing I’ve become..